Will the madness never end?
It seemed to work for ~K~ but not for me. I spent the entire time thinking..."I don't have a home. I don't have a job. What am I doing here?" I couldn't relax. It felt so wrong.
In the past 6 weeks since this all began,(Yes, 6 weeks ago today....) I've had a full night's sleep only 3 nights. Three. The other nights have been filled with fitful tossing or awful dreams.
Then this morning I received a call from someone who had left a message here last week. I spent all weekend thinking it was a job offer as it was from the same state agency for which I had previously worked.
It was a lady from the state's local office of "Adult Protective Services." It seems that my revenge-frenzied brother reported that I was going to commit suicide in front of my daughter.
Well I have to say that he did warn us that he was sending "people" here. Yes, to make our already chaotic lives even more of a living hell. Good thing I had already talked to the local sheriff about the anticipated goings-on.
Then today we went to check into renting an apartment. Few in this area have vacancies or take pets. The girls there had no clue. Not one idea of what we are going through. Oh sure they claim to understand but "We have to have this documentation," they said.
Yes I know you do - but we've not had mail in over 6 weeks. Our local post office was flooded and the mail hasn't been forwarded yet. We can't access the money in some of our accounts or even get the information from them as our local banks were flooded. We can't get you the vet records as our vet WAS FRIGGIN' FLOODED.
We stand before you homeless. Looking for a little help. Give us a break. Please.
Ok, ok. So I had a fit. Once again, I was moved to tears and gave the "a little compassion and patience goes a long way" lecture topped by the hopefully guilt inducing) closing of "IT MUST BE NICE TO HAVE A HOME TO GO TO".
It's gonna be another long night tonite. And I'm so looking forward to tomorrow. I wonder what it will bring. ( I bought a lottery ticket today ) Wish me luck.